Smut & Scones

How to be in alignment during this strange time. I started out the year with "alignment" as my word of the year, and I've been trying to use it to guide me in the first four months, choosing to focus my time and energy on things that were in alignment with my goals and dreams. Once the pandemic struck and the rhythms of life really changed, it's been hard to see how to do that. Sometimes just getting by feels like all we can do. But even that, I think, it's okay. And it actually does sync up. Part of being in alignment is not forcing things, not doing things just because someone told you that you were supposed to or that you should, but really doing what feels right for you, in your bones. For me, I have a hard time sitting still. I feel like rest is laziness, sometimes, like I should be continually pushing forward towards my goals or I'm failing. Learning how to navigate that is something I'm working on. Because logically I know it's not true, but g...

Literally what is this fucking story about. Ugh, why. Why can't I nail down the plot of this thing? Every time I think I've got something that I genuinely like, I come back to it an hour later and the thought of starting to writing anything is like, pointless. What is this stage in the writing process called? Because I'm certainly not writing and I'm starting to feel hopeless after restarting this same story several dozen times. I know I do better with pantsing, but the problem is, I have tried to pants this novel, and I get stuck in the middle. I have some good character motivation and conflict, an interesting premise, but it's not enough to keep the thing going. What is the end goal? What is anyone really aiming for? I have come up with so many different ideas at this point. Maybe I should just start writing, if I can find a place to start, and just go full NaNo style and let something come to me. Because this is not syncing up with my goals to publish multiple ...